The Church of Saint Agnes

1680 Dixie Highway, Fort Wright, KY 41011

The Church of Saint Agnes
1680 Dixie Highway, Fort Wright, KY 41011

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3rd Week of Lent

Date: 
Fri, 03/13/2015
Author: 
Rev. Msgr. Donald Enzweiler

I don’t know how to say this:  but…. I don’t love you……as I know I should.
I don’t love myself….as I know I should.  I don’t love God…..as I know I should.
 
It’s not that I won’t love.  The desire in my heart to love is often strong
if not visceral….I feel it in my gut.  I want to love.  It’s that I can’t love.
Now you know:  Msgr. Enzweiler can’t love.
 
Two factors contribute to my impaired state.  One:  I’m not married.
I have avoided the struggle that comes with faithful connection to a significant other.
My love has not been tried in the spousal crucible.
If Fr. Keene and I have a knock down….drag out….I’m under no obligation to remain.
A phone call to the bishop….and my bags are packed.
As much as I may want to, I can’t love in certain ways
because I’ve never learned to love in these ways.
I have and can avoid circumstances that engender love.
 
Another aspect of my dilemma of not being able to love is founded in sin.
We’re all in the same boat on this one.
As hard as we try….no matter the depth of our sincerity….
no matter how much energy we invest….we can’t love with a perfect love.
Sin interferes with love….with our attempts to love.
And so Lent reminds us:  if you want to love more, sin less.
 
There are some things that I cannot change about the circumstances
that restrict the perfection of my love.
But there are things I can change.
I can expand my horizons as far as love is concerned.
I can learn new ways to love within the context of my life.
I can increase my capacity to love.
I can explore my assumptions and presumptions about love….accept input from others
rid myself of over-romanticized notions.
I can be more deliberate in choosing love, pursuing love.
I can change the way I speak:  use more loving words.
I can change the way I think:  alter my ideas, stop certain thoughts.
I can cooperate with grace….
allow God to bring love into those places in my heart, and mind and soul
where love struggles to take root.
 
I don’t know how to say this:  but…. you don’t love me…you don’t love yourself….
you don’t love God…..as you know you should.  All of a sudden, I don’t feel so alone.
 
We are a people who take love seriously. 
It is our hope, as we gather for this Eucharist….that God can do what we cannot.
 
“Teach us to love, O Lord, that we might have life.  Amen!”